I don't dream very often or at least i dont remember my dream once i wake up. Most of the time when i sleep it feels like it was just one big long blink. But when i do dream it feels very realistic and significant.
A dream i had recently that has had a reuccring them not continusously, but just keeps popping up involved a gun. Before i have had dreams where i have had to use a gun inorder to protect someone, or had to be the super secret agent guy killing all the bad guys and save the girl. But a few of the dreams that i remember have ben me just dreaming as though i was in going through a day in my life. Waking up, getting ready going to class then going somewhere to just relax or have some fun. Then for some reason, i dont know what but i just become agitated, as though i have gotten into a fight with someone and i have to protect myself. Then all of a sudden gun would randomly appear in my hand out of nowhere. Every time i would go to aim and shoot, i couldn't.
In my dream i would pull the trigger, but it felt like something was jamming it or just felt very stiff or the gun wouldn't fire like it was out or ammo or missed fired. But the odd thing is i have never experienced any of these, i have never even held a gun before and the closest i have come to holding one was a toy gun or a BB gun. But in my dream i was holding assualt rifles, hand guns, shotguns & machine guns. i have never really know what it would be like to hold a gun and fire it. Yet in this one dream that i had a few weeks back it wasn't the same as before, but i was in the same scenario. Just going through my day as i would usually only this time i was faced with two figures both holding guns. I dont know what exactly happened but i managed to get one of the down the gun away from the other, but as i didn't he pulled his side arm. As he aimed at me i pulled the trigger and rather then nothing happening the gun went off and fired rounds into him killing him, but not before he managed to get two round off and hitting me in my abdomen.
Sometimes from this experience i would usually wake up but i didn't, i didn't even die in the dream i was fine. it was as though nothing had happened, yet i walked around in my dream with two bullet holes in me. Then i woke up i couldn't stop feeling my abdomen for almost the whole day, thinking maybe it wasn't a dream. I didn't know what to make of it so i choose to look it up why i would dream about getting shot and still live. I found, through some online research, getting shot meant that it was self punishment, or that i was feeling guilty or feeling stress. though i was feeling seriously stressed at the time and it explain why i was shot in my dream but why i didn't die or why walked around bug me and i still haven't been able to really figure it out. Especially since, why all of sudden after having dreams firing gun and nothing happening i have one where it works. I feel that i could have been an indication that i wasn't ready for it, that i wasn't up to the responsiblity. But now i feel like i am, like i can do anything and shouldn't hold back, either in a dream or in life. Either a choice we make in a dream or in life has an impact and we have to take the time to decide with a clear head what to do and step up to it and hide behind the shadows.
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